when thinking gets scary : Flipping our fears

Thinking never happens accidentally, it happens because you have vision, you have commitment and because you have some dream! May be a vague dream but you have one. Thinking – Sometimes chaos and sometimes peace but mostly a surge of emotions. when emotions are strong then it is a storm – hard to control or confine and focus your mind to make any choice; such storm blurs the distinction between real and imaginary. that sort of thinking makes you upset and closes all doors of hope. But reality remains that with just a little awareness and a flip, one can turn off the power source of such storm, which is also never easy. it gives appearance of a strong castle, hard to break in! but in reality mostly it is just a castle of card, waiting for a soothing blow of mindful wind. (which too often comes from some external source – may be a friend or a book or nature!)

but the question remains – How to control this storm? Or should we atall control it and wait for the external element? but that just doesnt make sense – waiting like that. because If we let it flow then sure it will engulf us, as it questions everything we believed in so far. So Should we be mere spectators and let it destroy what we believed so far? is there any way to use that energy of storm for our good-being? making that destructive destruction into a creative destruction!

Thinking is a creative process. Creation, when is for our good, when is about our strength makes us happy. But when its about our weakness our fears it becomes a creative force for our fears… thus making us weak and depended. How to seperate that good n evil creation and chose? There is a native american tale of two wolves which goes like,

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, “My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. “One is Evil – It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
“The other is Good – It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: “Which wolf wins?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed”.
Thus its upto us what we create, whom we feed.

But the question remains, if the evil wolf is feeding on our thinking, how to stop it? Mostly them the good wolf is invisible! But its not. Things are little mystical and counter intuitive here. There are no two wolves but one; Its just our perspective. Imagine The evil wolf and make it upside down, and its the good wolf! All time there but you were not aware of it. Good and evil – we make these distinction for our comfort but in real there is just a wolf. Our perception makes it good or evil.
When you are sad look within and you will realise it is the same thing for which you were happy and when you are happy look within to see that you were sad earlier for the same thing. Our Mind is cunning, it likes to dwell in past and future but dont like to settle in present. But Its there to keep us alive and it tries to find meaning… all the times. Thinking is just its way of expression – a manifestation that the mind is alive! Thus for mind thinking is a process a routine and we need to look upto it like that such that we must not react but let the storm settle and learn to dance in the storm rather than sitting ashore and wait for storm to recede.
Since the thinking is an manifestation of mind’s existence, it becomes manifestation of your extension too. Because we relate ourselves with our mind – what we thing we become. Its our ego, alter ego – its us! when reality remains that we need to be the master of our mind, we are the creator of our thought – our thoughts are product of our thinking ability. this ability is us not its products i.e. various thoughts and idea. but then we perceive and understand and know the ideas only not the master i.e. our ability. so when those ideas go haywire, fear sets in as we doubt those ideas thinking that those ideas are ourselves, i.e. we are weak… exactly when the evil wolf starts feeding inside.
Then We try hard to stop it from feeding on the thinking process, and we put fence and try hard to fend off the evil wolf… and we start this by rejection! rather than accepting and evaluating what is going on our knee jerk reaction is to close all the door of suggestion! and then we forget n ignore the fact that with that evil wolf we also close doors n nutrition to the good wolf. We forget this fact they are the same side of a coin, instead of flipping the coin we throw the coin and as a result we get a vacuum inside us. This vacuum makes our mind more insecure and that insecurity sets in more wolves – just evil ones! which now not only fed on our thinking but also on what we are, it bites n tore our dreams, faith and hope. when the reality remains that every event in life almost has two sides. we mostly chose one and act on one but we never see both sides without relating them to ourselves, being neutral, not being an idea but being a wise judge! thus, What starts with that fencing for being protective for ourselves, ends up destroying what we intended to protect… that’s the thing about fear. A vice that we must never trust.
Thinking becomes destructive when we let fear settle in our heart and mind.  The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it. It’s our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows. Purpose of fear is to make us aware and thats it. Once becoming aware of fear we need to focus on our imagination and thinking to know the facts and analyse the situation. Indeed the storm of thoughts will set in mind and some of them will also try or pretend to protect you. But you must realize that those protective thoughts  cripples you, being vulnerable makes you feel weak but indeed if you face this vulnerability with courage you will see a better side of yours – your own spiritual growth.

At the end our truth is, as ‘brene brow’n defines it in her book ‘gifts of imperfection’,
We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection.
Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.

Its love, for ourselves and for other that truly gives us strength. Its hard to love some one strange but indeed its our truth, love makes us strong.
So next time in ocean of life when the storm of thinking sets in and the tides of fear grow high and wind of uncertainty tries to topple your ship, just remember of the love that you have in your heart, love for yourself and for others – focus there. Let the strorm does it dance and eventually yoh will learn to just witness it without any reaction and then you will laugh how futile is its struggle, when all its attempt will fail to topple and unsettle u and when you will emerge out of thag strorm even more mindful and strong, you will discover your true strength – true you that you may have never seen… the good wolf! That feeling of victory and bliss is what puts a full stop to your thinking.

Empires built on DEBT: All you want to know about world economics, Eurozone crisis and inflation

The subject of the article is very demanding and I am going to touch much conceptual stuff in this article. thus I have tried to keep economic jargon as brief as possible. simultaneously I have tried to answer all possible questions that might arise in your mind while reading this article.

as per the title of this post, There are 4 broad areas that I have tried to elaborate. Depending on your requirement you can simply jump to the relevant part of your interest. However if you are new to economics, then I will recommend you to go through the article sequentially.

NOTE: This article is for understanding purpose only and and although the concepts and data mentioned here are valid and correct, they are expressed in very simple manner.

The covered subtopics are,

  1. What is fiscal deficit?
  2. How world economics functions
  3. China`s role in USA`s economy?
  4. GDP, growth rate
  1. the crisis: the rich countries in deep debt?
  2. what world is doing about it
  1. learning from crisis: deregulation: petroleum price
  2. Why government is doing it

Basics of economics

Economics is not a difficult discipline to understand but to understand an event in economics, you are supposed to know all associated factors and concepts, and that makes this subject challenging. So to understand Euro zone crisis and Policies of deregulation going in India you will need some basic understanding of economics, which starts with fiscal deficit And then little about GDP and growth rate.

What is fiscal deficit?

A government (G1) runs like a home. You earn money from your job and then you spend it on your daily activities and when you need more money than you earn, you simply borrow it. Similarly government earn money from various sources like taxes and duties, public sector company revenue etc. and then it spend this money on government employee salaries, developmental projects etc.

often government spends more than it earns and this difference between spend amount(S) and earned amount(R) is called as fiscal deficit(D) i.e. S-R=D. (u know, fiscal=related with finance & deficit=shortage)

how world economics carry out its activities or Business

government need money equal to its fiscal deficit to carry out its business; but devoid of internal sources of tax n duties, government take help of other means i.e. it resort to borrowing money and  it issues bonds. (bond, in general terms is a fixed deposit account) besides bonds, which are purchased by either financial institutions(big banks) of the country or mostly by other country`s government (G2).

But funny thing is other government G2 is also suffering same problem of fiscal deficit like G1!

Now a simple question arises, if both are suffering then why would G2 will help G1? (if this question has not raised in your mind just skip following para.)

Well, the answer is simple; today the governance has also become a business. Let’s understand this with an example of US and china. and then you will also understand why n how China is said to be a world power.

(Here I am going to use a term GDP (gross domestic product), if you don’t know what it is, don’t bother, just for time being assume it as total money generated in a country in 1 year)

for 2010 China`s GDP is ~$5trillion and fiscal deficit ~223billion while USA has GDP of $15trillion and fiscal deficit of ~$1.5trillion. thus considering the hugeness of amount, obviously USA`s fiscal deficit is more as compared to china.

To fill this deficit government of both countries will issue bonds. as matter of fact, USA being the richest country, it is considered as safe place to investment. also the government of USA has never defaulted! and value of US dollar hardly fluctuates and mostly it appreciates making more returns at maturity for the bond.

so with this lucrative offer, Suppose china buys these bonds and invests their money in USA fixed deposits.  then china has a security that USA will return its money after maturity of bond plus china will get some interest on these bonds!

And from where china will get that much money? Simply via the ‘made in china’ stuff! The international trade is carried out in US dollar only; and china has plenty dollars earned via the export based trade, as the international trade is carried out via US dollar. (for same reason, USA has strongest economy!) so there cannot be a better and safer place than USA to invest the huge chuck of money! Above all its china`s money that will be supporting USA economy(as it is fixing fiscal deficit) so obviously USA will have a soft side towards china. And this hugely matters in international politics. (Obviously you will be grateful to the person who is helping you.) Thus china prefers to invest in USA`s debt.

And to fix its own debt, china also issues bonds which are bought by other countries just as mentioned above. Thus, the universal principle governing global economics is bigger economies gets cheap funds from other big economies to fix its deficits. And such investments are done to gain favour from other countries in international politics. (As matter of fact, by means of bond, today USA owes china about a trillion USD!)

why not print more currency to fix deficit?

After above business another question might creep in your mind, why so complex? Why borrow money? Just print more currency n fix deficit! When I was studding this stuff I had asked my teacher same question Then he answered, ‘a note is simply a treasure bill that is issued against a fixed asset’. And I was more confused! The economists love to see the expression of frustration on your face and they get extreme pleasure in talking that jargon! (But you see, he used just 13 words to answer correctly! N I will be devoting a para to answer the same.)

So in simple language, the money or a note of Rs.100 or Rs.500 that we use is issued by RBI against some fixed tangible asset owned by the government. traditionally This asset was gold as per gold standard; that is a central bank was supposed to keep gold of same amount aside to print notes. however with maturity of economy today it is carried out on basis of bonds. Here the government issues bonds to central reserve bank, and upon this bonds central bank issues currency.

The bond remains liability of government. but you see, the bond is a type of debt and RBI issues money based on debt! money created out of debt! funny right? but that’s how it works.  🙂

now, If government asks RBI to issues more notes, then it will dilute worth of money already in circulation. it simply works on principles of demand and supply! if a commodity is more its value will be lower. More money in peoples hand more mouths to eat, but with fixed production, scares becomes the resources. And thus with simple rules of demand and supply, higher the demand and less is the supply, scares will be the resources leading to higher prices and hence inflation. (and this is the  reason for current inflation in India. We will come to that again in last section.)

Thus a wise government never opt to printing more currency to fill the deficit.

in economic jargon, the currency floating in economy is also called liquidity. Its just like melted water out of frozen iceberg and the RBI maintains the iceberg, by various ‘fiscal measures'(REPO and reverse REPO rate) central bank (RBI in India) controls this ‘liquidity supply’

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Emotions: the essence of being human

why, mr. Anderson, why? why, why do you do it? why, why get up? why keep fighting? do you believe you’re fighting for something, for more than your survival? can you tell me what it is, do you even know? is it freedom or truth, perhaps peace – could it be for love? illusions, mr. Anderson, vagaries of perception. temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose. and all of them as artificial as the matrix itself. although, only a human mind could invent something as insipid as love. you must be able to see it, mr. Anderson, you must know it by now! you can’t win, it’s pointless to keep fighting! why, mr. Anderson, why, why do you persist?

frankly speaking what i have discussed in this article has very less to do with this video clip but what i want to highlight here is that the computer and machine is really killing the human aspect of human being, its also my personal experience. 

I know that this movie matrix holds a really deep philosophical values and one need to relate those things with the real world to assimilate that. But that is the problem! To relate an idea one needs sound, healthy and open mind: an intuitive thinking mind. I believe every human being has it; by birth the nature fits it inside our brain. (it`s my humble request to readers to use it while reading this post!) This intuitive thinking mind  makes us human being; and as human being we also get gift of emotions. We are all emotional by birth. we feel pain, love, affection, jealousy, grudge, anxiety, fear, worry, happiness, nervousness, comfort, disdain, scorn, contempt and many more list of emotions are endless. (and that is the problem!)

going back to the clip, how can agent smith feel these emotions? Poor fellow is an artificial intelligent program which lacks emotions and hence empathy. Neo (Mr. anderson) being human being can only feel these emotions that is why Neo ardently says ‘because i choose to!’. That is what I am trying to deal in this article, understanding emotions: the greatest asset of human being: to empathise others emotions. Let’s be human beings and not machines.

Human beings are emotional by birth and since childhood these emotions shape our habits. But as we grow up we start getting numb towards these emotions due to changed social values. We start getting extrovert rather than introvert. The external pleasure starts mattering more to us than anything else as a result we become numb towards our intrinsic feelings; the external mirage of feelings simply puts on coatings on our tender human mind which was self conscious once.

As years pass the result of these coatings is, we feel emotions as they reach into their secondary, ternary or beyond mode; that is in its extreme forms. And we act to suppress these emotions in its extreme form. Our decisions are greatly shaped by these extreme emotions today and mostly these extreme emotion driven decisions creates catastrophic results. Let me put it in simplest form with following example,

Bob is a student. Bob wants to learn about management theory so purchases a book related with that topic: a 700 pages bulky book. Now he is all exited to read that book as the book is most recommended by his subject teacher and bob knows that by reading that book thoroughly his all questions will get satisfying answer. So with that excitement bob starts reading the book. First 10-20 pages all is going well, next 20 pages bob starts feeling restless as he finds that to get hold on idea of management he has yet to cover 600+ pages more which makes him nervous. Simple reason behind this is bob just want his answers in shortest possible duration he don’t want to wait till those 600+ pages. As he progresses further, 50-60th page his excitement and anticipation turns into anxiety which is caused due to the anticipation of waiting for something which bob usually hates doing. (of course bob is a youngster belonging to the fast food generation) Now this anxiety starts projecting in bobs gestures as he begins to chew his nails and starts shaking his leg. (his mind is shouting, common dude just finish this book I am fed up of waiting!) And as this anxiety reaches its climax, bob puts the book aside; this is a basic response developed by his brain after years of training. The response is like: anxiety implies unpleasant emotion, and for any unpleasant emotion bob should get rid of it as soon as possible. To get rid of this anxiety bob opens his drawer pulls out a cigarette and starts smoking which is clearly a distraction from what bob was supposed to do: understand the management theory. Now bob`s mind is distracted and after this bob calls his friend or simply moves over his computer and start playing dotta! (some game) or the best facebook!

Here the emotions flow like, excitement-> nervousness-> anxiety-> distraction=> wasted!(this is not emotion itself, but result of previous emotions)

the whys and hows of this is very simple, this is just a single case of today’s youth. There are many such cases where uncontrolled or un-comprehended emotions causes catastrophe. The results are like, smoking, drinking, rapes, murder, abuse etc.

jokes apart, on a serious note a severe form of expression of emotional burst is rape; where emotions flows like, excitement-> arousal-> desperation-> lack of empathy-> rape. (All these feelings are coated by recklessness and/or don’t care attitude)

(the viewer of ‘Lie to me‘ serial might get Déjà vu from above example, well the entire serial is based on research work of eminent scientist Dr. Paul Ekman.)

so a question might arise in your mind, if the science is able to analyze the situation and problem to such minute details, they even know cause of trouble then why they are not fixing it? or even if they are, what is way to deal with it?

well certainly there is a way, and science fraternity calls it emotional intelligence. which i have discussed in next part of this article.

Empathy: a gift worth rejuvenating

[previous: Emotions: The essence of being Human]

To Maintain balance between intellect and emotion is wisdom

-: shree shree ravi shankar

For years our intelligent society is build upon IQ that is thinking ability and logic taking emotions for granted. Our education system, selection procedure all is based on IQ. Since we left aside emotion in this 100 or more years of course and only concentrated on single aspect of human behavior i.e. intelligence things have came to an halt and as a result we are experiencing chaos in society. We have tried to pull only one aspect of human mind keeping the vital aspect stagnant. Where it is given that both emotion and intelligence are ‘the’ things which makes us human being: different form of species that all living beings.

he solution of this lies in self awareness, putting it exact words of Daniel Goleman we need to make the society ‘emotionally intelligent’.

This self awareness, putting in simple words stands like making one aware about his feelings. In case of bob of previous example, if he realize that his excitement is root of his nervousness and his chewing nails and shaking legs adds into his anxiety, he could have controlled his emotions and preventing himself from getting distracted from his aim.

The horizon of EQ is not just limited to the single person but on large scale it is related with understanding others feelings: to empathies. I strongly believe that the most of problems in today’s society are result of lack of empathy. The IQ based society has little place for empathy as it teaches and makes us dominating and ruthless. Our education system trains us so that we will get a job but it cannot assure whether the student will live for next day or not. The stressful life, depression followed by suicide among students and young professionals is alarming but still we are not really serious about emotional values. These are all consequences of numbness towards one`s own emotions and emotions of their loving peoples: parents, friends and relatives.

One more thing I would like to add here is, as a nature’s gift and in course of evolution the females have much more developed scene of empathy and this is a well accepted fact today. Sadly in society they are not given enough room to express these skills and the existing world just makes room to accommodate them in existing rigid workspace which was once created by some men as per their preferences. We need to give enough room to females to express and utilize their empathetic skills in their work style to get optimize their natural skills. Otherwise the existing work culture can perish the emotional aspect of women’s ‘motherly touch’. some consequences of that are visible today in the young generation. This is a vicious cycle of lack of empathy since the tender mind of child shapes itself in its earliest days when it is self conscious and if it is given touch of empathy during that time, the impact lasts long on the child’s mind. I am not saying that every women then should stay in home to protect their child, here I want to revive a forgotten role of educational institutes. (which existed in our culture ages back) these institutes need to wake up for this new role of teaching emotional intelligence to the young minds.

I think the real essence of human life lies in these emotions and feeling them, it’s a gift of nature to us human beings where we can be self conscious about our own feelings. And as we empathies them we understand how others are feeling. As we grew emotionally intelligent we can deal with the sad and unpleasant feelings at its root when it starts building thus achieving optimum performance and peace at conscious level which intern adds into our intelligence resulting in maximum pleasure at work.

 putting together, as per Daniel Goleman The domain of emotional intelligence stands on following pillars,

  1. Knowing your emotions
  2. Managing your emotions
  3. Motivating yourself
  4. Recognizing and understanding other person`s emotion
  5. Managing relationships and others emotions.

*Daniel goleman has delt with each of these topic at length in his book emotional intelligence: why EQ matters more than IQ.

The field of emotional intelligence is still very young only 20-25 years old and still research is going on yet the results are strong enough to believe in its utility and correctness. As Indian we have very strong reason to believe in it. If any of reader is familiar or following any form of meditaion, vipashana then I don’t need to give explanation for this since all of them talks about self awareness. Now EQ is putting that in more comprehensive form and what I think is rather than fighting and wasting time in claiming the fame for EQ we should strive to imbibe those skills to make the society a better and sustainable place to live for next generations.




*dedicated to Mr. K. M Pathi n my parents who taught me emotional intelligence and related interpersonal skills.

2010 in review

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