when thinking gets scary : Flipping our fears

Thinking never happens accidentally, it happens because you have vision, you have commitment and because you have some dream! May be a vague dream but you have one. Thinking – Sometimes chaos and sometimes peace but mostly a surge of emotions. when emotions are strong then it is a storm – hard to control or confine and focus your mind to make any choice; such storm blurs the distinction between real and imaginary. that sort of thinking makes you upset and closes all doors of hope. But reality remains that with just a little awareness and a flip, one can turn off the power source of such storm, which is also never easy. it gives appearance of a strong castle, hard to break in! but in reality mostly it is just a castle of card, waiting for a soothing blow of mindful wind. (which too often comes from some external source – may be a friend or a book or nature!)

but the question remains – How to control this storm? Or should we atall control it and wait for the external element? but that just doesnt make sense – waiting like that. because If we let it flow then sure it will engulf us, as it questions everything we believed in so far. So Should we be mere spectators and let it destroy what we believed so far? is there any way to use that energy of storm for our good-being? making that destructive destruction into a creative destruction!

Thinking is a creative process. Creation, when is for our good, when is about our strength makes us happy. But when its about our weakness our fears it becomes a creative force for our fears… thus making us weak and depended. How to seperate that good n evil creation and chose? There is a native american tale of two wolves which goes like,

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.

He said, “My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. “One is Evil – It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
“The other is Good – It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: “Which wolf wins?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed”.
Thus its upto us what we create, whom we feed.

But the question remains, if the evil wolf is feeding on our thinking, how to stop it? Mostly them the good wolf is invisible! But its not. Things are little mystical and counter intuitive here. There are no two wolves but one; Its just our perspective. Imagine The evil wolf and make it upside down, and its the good wolf! All time there but you were not aware of it. Good and evil – we make these distinction for our comfort but in real there is just a wolf. Our perception makes it good or evil.
When you are sad look within and you will realise it is the same thing for which you were happy and when you are happy look within to see that you were sad earlier for the same thing. Our Mind is cunning, it likes to dwell in past and future but dont like to settle in present. But Its there to keep us alive and it tries to find meaning… all the times. Thinking is just its way of expression – a manifestation that the mind is alive! Thus for mind thinking is a process a routine and we need to look upto it like that such that we must not react but let the storm settle and learn to dance in the storm rather than sitting ashore and wait for storm to recede.
Since the thinking is an manifestation of mind’s existence, it becomes manifestation of your extension too. Because we relate ourselves with our mind – what we thing we become. Its our ego, alter ego – its us! when reality remains that we need to be the master of our mind, we are the creator of our thought – our thoughts are product of our thinking ability. this ability is us not its products i.e. various thoughts and idea. but then we perceive and understand and know the ideas only not the master i.e. our ability. so when those ideas go haywire, fear sets in as we doubt those ideas thinking that those ideas are ourselves, i.e. we are weak… exactly when the evil wolf starts feeding inside.
Then We try hard to stop it from feeding on the thinking process, and we put fence and try hard to fend off the evil wolf… and we start this by rejection! rather than accepting and evaluating what is going on our knee jerk reaction is to close all the door of suggestion! and then we forget n ignore the fact that with that evil wolf we also close doors n nutrition to the good wolf. We forget this fact they are the same side of a coin, instead of flipping the coin we throw the coin and as a result we get a vacuum inside us. This vacuum makes our mind more insecure and that insecurity sets in more wolves – just evil ones! which now not only fed on our thinking but also on what we are, it bites n tore our dreams, faith and hope. when the reality remains that every event in life almost has two sides. we mostly chose one and act on one but we never see both sides without relating them to ourselves, being neutral, not being an idea but being a wise judge! thus, What starts with that fencing for being protective for ourselves, ends up destroying what we intended to protect… that’s the thing about fear. A vice that we must never trust.
Thinking becomes destructive when we let fear settle in our heart and mind.  The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it. It’s our fear of the dark that casts our joy into the shadows. Purpose of fear is to make us aware and thats it. Once becoming aware of fear we need to focus on our imagination and thinking to know the facts and analyse the situation. Indeed the storm of thoughts will set in mind and some of them will also try or pretend to protect you. But you must realize that those protective thoughts  cripples you, being vulnerable makes you feel weak but indeed if you face this vulnerability with courage you will see a better side of yours – your own spiritual growth.

At the end our truth is, as ‘brene brow’n defines it in her book ‘gifts of imperfection’,
We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection.
Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.

Its love, for ourselves and for other that truly gives us strength. Its hard to love some one strange but indeed its our truth, love makes us strong.
So next time in ocean of life when the storm of thinking sets in and the tides of fear grow high and wind of uncertainty tries to topple your ship, just remember of the love that you have in your heart, love for yourself and for others – focus there. Let the strorm does it dance and eventually yoh will learn to just witness it without any reaction and then you will laugh how futile is its struggle, when all its attempt will fail to topple and unsettle u and when you will emerge out of thag strorm even more mindful and strong, you will discover your true strength – true you that you may have never seen… the good wolf! That feeling of victory and bliss is what puts a full stop to your thinking.

enter the matrix…

Matrix trilogy is one of my favorite movie. The sci-fi sequences the jargon concepts and web of machines controlled by computers, really a magnificent imagination of the wachowski brothers who have written script of the movie.

When I saw for the movie for the first time I really wonder whether such world will became really one day but eventually dropped any such thought considering that the movie is a fiction.

But think about it, if you see the world around you as per your view you will not see any change or any irregularity in it, but what if you change your perspective to see towards thing and adopt another’s perspective to perceive things just like neo did under guidance of morphious? That’s where you enter into the world of real matrix.

But to enter the matrix there is a prerequisite as Morpheus had given a choice to Neo to select a capsule; either red or blue. Just like that while changing your perspective you are supposed to drop all your prejudices, you must open your mind for new ideas you must accept the contrasting reality once entering into the matrix. : That is choosing the RED capsule. but if you choose Blue, no matter where you are in matrix or in your regular world things will remain the same. And Just like you can enter into other world, people from that world can enter into your world. for them your world will be the matrix. In this way everyone from either side of matrix has this choice of changing their perspective.

So what’s in the matrix? It is indeed gloomy and full of robots as shown in the movie, not exactly the same since rather than mechanical machines you will see humans acting like robots. mostly doing mechanical activities. Like Agents of movie there will be a group of people: robots, hostile to other group of people i.e. humans and peoples. The robots are ruled by money and money is regulated by rules. No sentiments no emotions no feelings a ruthless world. People running behind money forgetting their human values and ethics, live becomes race against time and time that is brought in terms of money … everywhere money, in fact here time also becomes money! Power also became money! Respect also come and go with money. And people follows and serve the agent for this MONEY!!!

Fortunately Like the movie, in the world of matrix there exist some humans just like zion of movie, who are holding the human values in their heart. These humans find and introduce the one ‘neo’ into the system to get them out of the sink of matrix. Many times neo is from the other world self motivated with full of ethics and goodness of human value.  But irrespective of this luminous in his heart path of neo is never so easy, after entering what he finds is total darkness,  some force like black hole which tries to even suck off the illumines of goodness from neo. It really becomes challenging from even neo in such times to sustain in that gloomy environment. But to his fortune before fading of the light of luminous, Morpheus appears and make neo realize that “he doesn’t need to fear about this darkness, the fear has darken his mind so badly that he have started thinking that it’s not worth the efforts to find the place of light.”  Then Morpheus enlighten him by making neo realize about the power of luminous inside neo and guide him how to use it, making him to believe in himself. Remember this luminous is nothing but the ethics that neo has developed in his world before entering in the matrix.

To end the infinite world of matrix its necessary for neo to understand what exactly it is? How does it work?, and as he starts to understand the matrix, it expands! Just when he thinks that he has learned the way to deal with it, matrix again expands with new diversions. Although matrix expands neo is left the same as he begins and then he realize that perhaps his scene of progress is based on illusion that things out there are going to remain the same and that at last he has gain control, but in reality of that matrix neo is a foreign body and it expands irrespective of knowledge of neo.

But neo never give up he keeps on trying. Every neo believes that his greatest weakness is his greatest strength so in the matrix he attacks in the others what they themselves do in a different form and this pattern continues until they become fully conscious of it.

Often neo comes across the people of the matrix and robots too, he even tries to tell that a great, wonderful world exists out of this matrix but to feel it you must change your perspective and give away your fear. But poor people programmed by the matrix in such a way that breaking their illusion becomes almost impossible. Similarly about the agents of matrix some are hostile towards neo but unlike the movie the agents i.e.  (Robots, at least some of them who have their brain working) understand the neo but unfortunately rarely respond to neo. The communication never goes at it should be, as neo progress n talks the robots whose brain are under some influence of consciousness goes silence. So for neo it seems that they are getting bored or losing interest or making up their own mind about what neo is saying or even about neo himself without his guidance. So neo believes that as long as he can keep them talking he may know what they (robots) are thinking.

But silence can also mean confidence and mutual respect, silence can mean live and let live: the appreciation that he is neo and robot is robot. This silence is an affirmation that they are already together as two people and not entities of matrix, just to be safe from rules of matrix robots choose to be silent.  “Worlds can mean that I want to make you into friend and silence can mean that I accept you already being ‘the one’”

Finally These all people and robots (good one) understand that they are doing something wrong and then their consciousness tells them about it but simultaneously the programmed mind instructs them to keep on doing the same thing and surprisingly brain supports it by finding a reason to justify the act of continuation.

let us come out this all, if you are with sound mind until now, following this post till here and if you are a human; not robots then you must have understood what i am talking about.

So what is solution? In fact do we need one? Why neo fails to deliver the results? Why it is so difficult? The answer is right in the choice: between the red and blue capsule. every time people of matrix has choice to be right by accepting the matrix as it is by choosing BLUE capsule or being human by choosing the RED one.

Which capsule you will choose?

Caste against citizens

Our democracy is determined to show the world that whatever others can do, we can do worse. If in this process, individual initiatives are killed, standards lowered, and professional ethics compromised, there is no cause for worry. We can still sink a lot lower.

We want to be a world power, but our politicians will not let that happen. Sadly, a number of intellectuals are on their side digging holes for all of us to jump into. Instead of thinking citizenship, our democratically elected leaders are thinking caste and family. Instead of admonishing them, many of our intellectuals see merit in all of this as they supposedly reflect popular opinion.

 Among other things, the ‘people’s’ opinion fetish works best when it is geared towards yesterday. We were people once upon a time in the distant past, but today we are citizens. This aspect is not reflected in our politics. The bulk of our elected leaders, the three Yadavs included, would happily slide down deep black holes to represent the people. Ask them to look ahead and deliver to citizens and they would lose their way.

As citizens we do not need caste but we need development, growth, employment and clean air. We need to think as one so that the basis of our existence is rooted in common factors and not in divisive ones. But when we think as people, none of this is our concern. Instead we are overwhelmed by the need to dominate other people. So in a democracy of people, there is always caste against caste, language against language, religion against religion. As citizenship is blind to these considerations, our politicians consider it a handicap.

Censuses have always reflected the needs of citizens so that policy can be adequately framed to aid the public. The census is a document in service of the future and not to serve past prejudices or sectional interests. If the census today is pressured to include caste numbers then the game is clear. Caste will henceforth be the basis of social policy and not citizenship. The idea of the public is junked and the notion of caste, kin, clan and religion will rule the day.

When several intellectuals supported OBC reservations and, indeed, reservations of all kinds in perpetuity, they should have known which side they were cheering for. The politics of caste can perhaps be justified as people’s voices amplified, but it certainly muffles the call of citizenship.

Once caste numbers are published there will be endless quarrels over whether or not the facts were correctly gathered, the numbers properly added and so on. Brotherhoods will soon emerge, canvassing memberships to certain castes with tempting offers of quick jobs, early promotions and happy marriages. To make all of this work, the traditional system will have to be properly tanked up with bad blood with enough in reserve to spill out on to the streets.

As is plainly visible already, caste politicians are not done yet with reservations. They are now claiming new territory by asking for control over marriage, not just through informal control, which was always the case, but through the law. If they have their way again, marriage through choice will become another victim of yesterday, and once again, citizens will be trampled in the name of the people.

We want to be a world power, but our politicians will not let that happen. Sadly, a number of intellectuals are on their side digging holes for all of us to jump into. Instead of thinking citizenship, our democratically elected leaders are thinking caste and family. Instead of admonishing them, many of our intellectuals see merit in all of this as they supposedly reflect popular opinion.

Among other things, the ‘people’s’ opinion fetish works best when it is geared towards yesterday. We were people once upon a time in the distant past, but today we are citizens. This aspect is not reflected in our politics. The bulk of our elected leaders, the three Yadavs included, would happily slide down deep black holes to represent the people. Ask them to look ahead and deliver to citizens and they would lose their way.

As citizens we do not need caste but we need development, growth, employment and clean air. We need to think as one so that the basis of our existence is rooted in common factors and not in divisive ones. But when we think as people, none of this is our concern. Instead we are overwhelmed by the need to dominate other people. So in a democracy of people, there is always caste against caste, language against language, religion against religion. As citizenship is blind to these considerations, our politicians consider it a handicap.

Censuses have always reflected the needs of citizens so that policy can be adequately framed to aid the public. The census is a document in service of the future and not to serve past prejudices or sectional interests. If the census today is pressured to include caste numbers then the game is clear. Caste will henceforth be the basis of social policy and not citizenship. The idea of the public is junked and the notion of caste, kin, clan and religion will rule the day.

When several intellectuals supported OBC reservations and, indeed, reservations of all kinds in perpetuity, they should have known which side they were cheering for. The politics of caste can perhaps be justified as people’s voices amplified, but it certainly muffles the call of citizenship.

Once caste numbers are published there will be endless quarrels over whether or not the facts were correctly gathered, the numbers properly added and so on. Brotherhoods will soon emerge, canvassing memberships to certain castes with tempting offers of quick jobs, early promotions and happy marriages. To make all of this work, the traditional system will have to be properly tanked up with bad blood with enough in reserve to spill out on to the streets.

As is plainly visible already, caste politicians are not done yet with reservations. They are now claiming new territory by asking for control over marriage, not just through informal control, which was always the case, but through the law. If they have their way again, marriage through choice will become another victim of yesterday, and once again, citizens will be trampled in the name of the people.

The caste census and demands to control caste marriages by law represent double octane backwardness, though it is expressed in a democratic garb. This is not the first time such traditional demands have been made in the name of representing people, but it was called fascism then. That the Left, the centrists and the conservatives in Indian politics lack the nerve to stand up to casteism of this kind only tells us how citizens have been forgotten in the quest for votes.

 If this is what democracy is all about, then why did we fight for Independence? The British would gladly have consented to ruling over a people who are internally divisive. They would have happily put in place pre-fabricated walls within which we could have squabbled forever, setting up caste against caste, clan against clan and sect over sect. When we made our Constitution it was supposed to help democracy, and we were once proud of it. Obviously, at some point we were either not paying attention, or we were downright citizen-abusive, that we let caste and other sectional values rule our politics.

Imagine an India in the 21st Century where tourists come in supersonic jets to see brides being burnt, lovers hacked to death, jobs handed out on caste grounds and officials elected on their bigotry appeal. They would marvel at the Indian ‘people’ who can continue sitting on their haunches, completely oblivious of nano science, clean air, informatics, and rocket science. Here are a people who are not just ignorant, but proud of being that way. That would be our USP in this century and in the centuries to come.

Trust India to aim for the lowest and getting it bang on.

Where’s My Nobel Prize?

this is an editorial published in times of India, contributed by  famous novelist chetan bhagat,

The recent news of a person of Indian origin winning the Nobel prize while based abroad sparked off a series of discussions at home. “Why don’t we win Nobel prizes here?” became the question of the week. The standard points were raised: we don’t have the facilities, too much government interference, the selection process is rigged, the prize committee is racist and, finally, who cares about the Nobel anyway (of course we do, that’s why we discuss it).
Like all media stories, this one too will die soon. However, maybe it is time to look at the core issue: why India doesn’t excel on the world stage on a fairly consistent basis. We don’t win a significant number of Olympic medals, we don’t create global brands, our IT industry is essentially a job transfer model but we haven’t created even one Google, Facebook or Twitter. (Of course, there is plenty for Indians to be proud of otherwise, so please don’t jump on me because of my observations.)
The real issue comes down to the treatment of talent in our country. So, what is talent? Talent refers to a special ability and aptitude that give people an edge in a particular field. In sport, science, films, business or the arts, people who dominate the world stage all have a gift that makes it easier for them to excel. Of course, along with talent there
is preparation, hard work and a certain amount of luck required to achieve success. However, talent is usually a necessary ingredient. Talent is rare, and randomly distributed across the human population, irrespective of pedigree, connections or wealth. Some may call talent an unfair gift. However, it is talent that allows ordinary people to come up in life. Otherwise, rich people would stay rich and poor people poor. Thus, this unfair talent actually makes the world fairer.
However, we don’t put talent on the highest pedestal in our country. Talent’s stature is below that of someone with connections, with hereditary entitlement, pedigree or even experience.

Even in an IIT, a truly gifted young faculty cannot jump ranks and scales set by the system. And the people designing the system never took talent into account. Even when talent is identified, we are unable to train it, and find it difficult to reward it.
It is difficult to say why we have this attitude, but there are many possible reasons. One,
talent conflicts with the traditional Indian caste system. Two, Indian cultural values revere the older generation and its experience, and talent zooms past it.

Ask yourself, have you seen some of this in India? Maybe because so many dreams have been crushed in India, someone else’s success reminds us of our own pain. The US (only as a contrasting example, not recommending we become like them) has an opposite value system. Talent is respected, seen as something to be emulated. That is why they have teenage boy bands and college dropouts who open outcomes as national icons. We don’t.


There are grave negative repercussions for a community that doesn’t respect talent. It leads to a society where connected people do better than people with ability. It leads to a lot of talent being unused, a tremendous waste of a national resource. It causes frustration in the entire new generation as they see people with less capability doing better than them. It also reinforces the old Indian values of fatalism and the helpless-common-man theory. And it means India’s excellent people may not excel
worldwide to the extent possible.
So what can be done? Well, we definitely can do something – both at the macro organisational level and a micro individual level.
At the organisational level, we have to let go of corporate hierarchies and the lifelong promotion ladders of government, particularly in talent-dependent organisations like R&D, companies requiring high innovation or sport.

at individual level we have to encourage and appreciate talent emerging around us. We have to make incentives in line with what attracts talent, as there is a global battle for it. Exceptional talent demands exceptional reward. We have to take away the moral judgement associated with rewarding talent. Just as it is morally okay for a rich man’s son to be rich, a person with talent also deserves to do really well.

Change needs to happen amongst us, at the individual level as well. We have to acknowledge that talent exists, and we need to respect it. Frankly, isn’t it better a talented person gets rewarded than a minister’s son? Talent shouldn’t cause resentment, it should become an inspiration. I think the young generation is already on board with that. It needs the older generation’s support to make this change in values. It may be difficult, but it is worth it.
Because if we do become a talent-driven country, we will become a more progressive nation, utilise the new generation’s skills properly, become a fairer society and, along the way, win a few Nobel prizes too.

make promise n get a nobel …. barak obama gets one!

The awarding of the Nobel Peace Prize to U.S. President Barack Obama landed with a shock on darkened, still-asleep Washington. He won! For what?????

just delevering a lecture in Indonesia n Cairo? touching feelings of muslims??? re bounding Americans and Muslims?

or for “his extraordinary efforts to strengthen international diplomacy and co-operation between peoples”. (in terms of promises),

He promised to ban torture and other extreme interrogation techniques for terrorists.

he also promised to close the U.S. military prison at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, a source of much distaste for the U.S. around the world, a task with difficulties that have Mr. Obama headed to miss his own January 2010 deadline.

He promises that he would end the Iraq war.

He has pushed for new efforts to make peace between the Israelis and Palestinians. But he’s received little cooperation from the two sides. (this one is true n happening)

He said he wants a nuclear-free world. but cant trust Iraq, seria etc. ready to help pak who literally plays war.

He has said that battling climate change is a priority(!?) and he did not signed the kyto protocol which says cut the green house emission.

perhaps he is busy in cleaning S.H.*.T created by bush admin, and so far have done a fantastic job. so anything antibush => nobel???

The prize seems to be more for Mr. Obama’s promise than for his performance.soon will know about the diplomacy behind this…

ok next year our prime minister will also bang a nobel for peace talks with pakistan.

first after 26/11 attack we didint lauched war against pak,

in sharm al-shaik we took a soft stand,

and since 50 years we are just talking…….with pak, with naxal attacks with china with Bangladesh……

wow… its election time in Maharashtra, tell every minister to submit their profiles coz our politicians are best at making promises many to the poor people, imagine how many nobels will India bank on this potential… great!!!!

UN releases Mahatma stamp

UNITED NATIONS: Marking the International Day of Non-Violence, the United Nations released a Mahatma Gandhi stamp on the occasion of his 140th birth anniversary. The United Nations Postal Administration released the $1 stamp designed by Miamibased artist Ferdie Pacheco.

The stamp shows the Father of the Nation in red, blue and gold. Envelopes marked with the stamp and the U.N. seal are on sale. Several U.N. envoys present at a function, organised
by the Indian Mission, reiterated the impact of the Mahatma’s
life.
“In many ways, Mahatma Gandhi pre-visioned the United Nations. Much of the work we do in the area of human rights owes its genesis in the struggle against racial discrimination, which he focused on,” said Ambassador to the U.N. Hardeep Singh Puri.
President of the General Assembly Ali Abdussalam Treki stressed upon Gandhiji’s commitment to communal harmony between the Muslims and the non-Muslims. Paying tributes to Gandhiji, United States Permanent Representative to the U.N., Susan Rice, said, “Gandhi had influenced millions of Americans. Gandhi believed that physical force could be
turned aside by moral forces.”

article copy paste from: the hindu dated 04-10-09 🙂